I'm terrible person, I don't know how to keep distance with people. I mean one day I can be totally attached to someone and the other I feel like a stranger to him.
Serge tried to contact me, we used to be the best friends up until last autumn, but I just pushed him futher. I don't now why I keep doing that.
He said that our mutual friend's bought a car and they want to see me, have a little party about that and stuff. However I lied about my business that day and decided not to go. Why?! I think I'm still quite offended that no one of them was around when I felt pretty unsafe last autumn. Even mates on internet were more concerned about me.
"Don't make me feel guilty, girl, my every single attempt to get in touch with you breaks against your wall of indifference"
Anyway we're ok with Tanya again, she called me yesterday and we talked about papers for visa.